Sorry for not writing for a very looooong time

Due to my busy working life, i was forced to abandon my blog for a very looonnng time. Honestly, i really hate to do this. But my boss is a witch that love to make everyone's life miserable . . . believe me... I'm not making this up but almost everyone in the office want to transfer . . . Sometimes, we alwayz pray that she might get sick for a very long time. . . It sound bad but I'm bet you gonna say the same thing if you be with her for a week . . . hehehe

Back to my teddy bear story, my teddy bear has become a very talented artist last week. Why? He helped me paint our feature walls and hang some pictures that i bought in IKEA and our graduation pictures. Decorating my house make me happy and reduce my stress level. . . FYI, i'm in the process of buying this house...so, better start decorating it now . . . and teddy seems to be enjoying doing it...unbelievable... but..thanx a million my hubby

On the 27th June, we manages to watched Beauty and The Beast Musical Theater with an old friend. It was nice but i do missed the old story... not the one that Disney directed. Watching the theater reminds me of an old time during our matriculation where i acted as the beast in our class short movies " Handsome and the beast". It was really a very nice and memorable things in my life. I missed everyone now . . I wish my life can be better as before. . .

See you in my next post..I hope it will be soon.

Welcoming teddy bear's old computer

Last saturday, we went to teddy bear's candy shop to collect his motherboard. Teddy bear received a new motherboard since the old one can't be repaired by the factory in Korea. Teddy bear seems very happy to play with his new PC and almost forget about my "blue". With the new lcd monitor he bought earlier, i bet he gonna spend every minutes at nite in his WOW world. However, good news for me that now I can spend more time with my laptop and update this blog more frequently. The bad new for me, we have less time going out. Oh ya, teddy bear is already at level 52. Only 5 levels behind his friends.

My working life just started and i think i will like this job . . . hopefully. eventhough i have millions of thing to learn but i like the challenges. New job environment and new tasks everyday. The most important thing, more time to spend with teddy bear in the car - where he will give 110% attention to what I'm saying. Hehehehehe . Eventhough a lot of bad things happened to me lately, i think there will be alright.

Lunch with old pal

Last saturday, despite of teddy bear busy schedule, we manage to have our lunch at our favourite dim sum restaurant with one of our best friend. She and her colleague just arrived from Melaka a day before. Honestly, i havent seen her for a long long time... maybe more than 2 years . . . And i really glad to spend some time with her . . . enjoying the food and flashing back our sweet memories . . . Its hard for me to find a teddy bear pictures that can represent my "groovie" friend . . . so, i sacrifice mrs teddy bear new picture and include it here. Yeah, i think this picture is really similar with her . . . It reminds me about her short turqouis skirt . . .

Yesterday was not a very happy day to my beloved teddy bear. He had some problems with his friend. As i told him before, he must clarify the situation before it getting worse. Teddy bear soft hearted always make him sad and angry. I think its about time for him to be strong and fight for your rights. Don't let others bullies you!!! Positive working environment plus team work will make your day bright!

Today, i received a cute pictures of dolls . . . It is really cute and i bet you can't tell wheteher is it real babies or toys . . . So , enjoy this picture below. . . Oh, i wish i can have a cute babies like this in the future . . . Can't wait for it to be true

Lucky to have teddy bear beside me . . .

Last week were really bad for me . . i felt unwanted...not welcomed at my new ministry . . . Everyone seems to have their own way to do things . . . not much communications even i'm their new boss . . . I really wish i had accept my previous boss offer to go to her ministry. Maybe there, i will much more appreciated . . . she works with me before and knows my reputation well.

Maybe just to cheer me up, teddy bear brought me to a japanese restaurant with his 2 other friends and had our dinner there. The food were amazingly delicious and can't wait to go there again. The food offered were really worth it compare to the price they charged you . . . However, i had a stomach ache in the afternoon and it does spoiled my appetite a little bit.

My working life just started

Last Monday, i was asked to report duty to my new ministry which related to women, family and community development. The minstry is not as huge as my previous one. unfortunately for me... there is no post for me at the moment. i spend most of my time last week at the library. Sooo bored.

Since my new office is just nearby teddy bear office, we go to office together. Its like heaven for me... Not driving and can spend more time with him... The bad part is..has to wake up earlier in the morning and facing the worst traffic condition!! So, from today onwards please expect less post in this blog...how ever , i will share lots of teddy bear stories whenever i can . . .

P/s: found a very nice hand bag today . . . its sooo nice but sooo expensive... make me think twice to buy it.Teddy bear offer to pay it for me but i still can make up my mind. Its braun buffel hand bag . . . the pictures below are the hand bag that i'm dying for... but i'm not sure which one coz it look almost the same for me . . while surfing their website... i just realised that this brand do have a very nice collection fo handbag . . . honestly, i never went to their shop or boutique because of the price . . . mayeb when i get my thesis allowance, i'll buy it . . .

Teddy bear is backkkk!!!!

I'm so happy today becoz finally teddy bear is here with me again . . . Now, i can have a long nice sleep at nite and of coz share lots of stories with him . . . To welcome him back, i cooked a special dinner for him but still can be considered healthy . . . Teddy bear seems to like it . . . My poor teddy bear seems to be very tired today... He sleep like a baby. . Gud nite teddy bear and sweat dreams . . . I wish he's not working tommorrow . . .

Some of my friends asked me...if i ever bored to be with him every day...24 hours and 7 days a week . . . My honest answer and with any hesitation . . . NO ... i never feel bored with my teddy bear . . . we know each other for more than 10 years... 14 years to be exact and we still like friends . . . We share everything and learn how to accept others' weaknesses . . . We do had our bad moments but what a marriage be without it . . .

P/s: Did anyone realised that mrs teddy bear's new image? Hehehe . . .

A song for my far away teddy bear

This one of my favourite song and it always reminds me to teddy bear... Enjoy the lyrics...

How do I ???

How do I,

Get through the night without you?

If I had to live without you,

What kind of life would that be?

Oh, I I need you in my arms, need you to hold,

You're my world, my heart, my soul,

If you ever leave,

Baby you would take away everything good in my life,

And tell me now

How do I live without you? I want to know,

How do I breathe without you? If you ever go,

How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Without you,

There'd be no sun in my sky,

There would be no love in my life,

There'd be no world left for me.

And I,Baby I don't know what I would do,

I'd be lost if I lost you,

If you ever leave,

Baby you would take away everything real in my life,

And tell me now,

How do I live without you? I want to know,

How do I breathe without you?If you ever go,

How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

Please tell me baby,

How do I go on?

If you ever leave,

Baby you would take away everything,

I need you with me,

Baby don't you know that you're everything, Real in my life?

And tell me now,

How do I live without you,I want to know,

How do I breathe without you?If you ever go,

How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?

How do I live without you?

How do I live without you baby?

Teddy bear is out again. . .

Teddy bear is away for few days starting today . . . he has to visit a site in a hospital situated at east part of malaysia, terengganu. He'll be going for 3 days . . . Since I'm so free now without any asigment...no job to be done . . . i bet i'm gonna miss him very much . . . this make me thinking to adopt a cute kitten. I saw this cute picture of grey kitten ... .sooooooooo cute and it make my desire stronger . . . even though a kitten can't replace a teddy bear, at least i wont be alone . . . hehehhe ... hmmm... i wonder if teddy bear will allow me to have 1 cute kitten . . .

Welcoming my new nephew . ..

Today, teddy bear and I went to visit our best friend who just had a baby boy... He's a friend than will do anything for you and can be a shoulder to cry on . . . Our friendship started 10 years ago and i hope it will continues forever . . . Actually the baby is almost 2 months now . . . he is sooo cute and has his father face . . . So for my new nephew Luqman Nas, welcome to our family and be a good boy.... and your auntie is here for you!!

As usual, the visit make my heart uncomfortable . . . i really want a cute baby no matter its a boy or girl with my beloved teddy bear . . . My life will be complete with our chidren . . .It has been 5 years and the pain sometimes is unbearable. With all the pressures surounding our life, i really hoping for miracle this year. Yeah, maybe God has His plan for me and teddy bear. . .but society can be very cruel sometimes . . . so my wish for this year is to have our own baby . . . others are not very important for me . . . So, please pray for me!!

Teddy bear new lcd monitor . . .

Last saturday while i'm busy with my exam and training, teddy bear went to his "candy shop" and bought a new lcd monitor. I'm glad that now he can play with better view and can catch up with his friends. Since last year he want to buy the thing. Unfortunately for him, at the same time his new motherboard got some problem and need to be sent to the factory. It will take almost a month to get it back. So, teddy bear need to play his WOW with old pc but new monitor... poor teddy bear!!

Oh ya...next week teddy bear will start travelling again... i wish i can follow him . . . maybe next time lor . . . I need a new project while he's away ... if not i'm going to be bored for few days . . .

any idea?? hmmmm

Its finally over..congrates to myself...

As for today...i already completed my mba requirements.... for the last two weeks...life was almost like disaster to me....and of course to my teddy bear.... I'm so occupied with my study... to complete my theses and final exam . . . I can't sleep and have no time to entertained teddy bear .

To my beloved teddy bear, thankx for being so understanding eventhough sometime you did challenge my patience. Now its all over... and my working life will start soon... I really wish i gonna get a ministry with great environment and good bosses. I still can't forget all my stupid male bosses had done to me previously...no more male boss for me!! Just can't stand stupid and arrogant boss . . .

Our new bed

Flash news!!!

Last nite, our new wooden king size bed had arrived... it was soo huge and i feel so far away form my teddy bear... Teddy bear seems to love the bed very much... and he now has a side table to put all his stuff inside there . . .

Vote for my teddy bear

As everyone is talking about the general election . . . i think that my teddy bear should also be one of the candidate .. .. in order to retain the cuteness and hapiness in the teddy bear kingdom ....vote for my teddy bear!! You know is cute and full of teddy bearness . . . and lots of love to share... why choose others? hehehheh

Any other bears out there dare to contest him?? Panda or grizzly bear perhaps?

VOTE FOR TEDDY BEAR!!!

Just imagine if my teddy bear is really involves in politics . . . I think I'm gonna be the most unhappy person in this world to share his attention and time with hundreds even thousand of people . . . . Thats the main reason why i married him not a piliticians....

LOVE IS IN THE AIR . . .

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE ESPECIALLY MY TEDDY BEAR!!!

P/s: had problem with this blog since yesterday...so sorry for the late wish!!

Time is running out

There are millions of story i would like to share with you about teddy bear..he's latest news... how ever, time is running damn short for me... got to submit my thesis 22nd Feb... and before that i have a final exam....

So, please wait till all this disaster ended and i will update about my teddy bear activities here...
Wish me millions of luck!!

Thank you teddy bear!!

To my beloved teddy beddy hubby honey,

Thank you "beary" much!!

I love you soooo much!!

Thank you for being the heart of my life,

Harboring me in the arms of your love,

Anchoring me in the rock of your faith,

Needing me, that I not be in vain,

Knowing me well, yet loving me still.

You are the island I've found in my sea,

Ocean I dwell in and deep where I dive,

Unfailing heaven and passionate earth.

Listen to my heart teddy bear

I've already deleted my recent post... you are too late . .. as teddy bear said... he did not like it when i write everything in my blog . . .

What you understand about trust?

Trust is defined as willingness to be vulnerable. Trust is gain through time...you can't buy trust and you can't asked for trust. Even though it takes years to build, it only take few seconds to lose it. Why? Trust it self is a very vulnerable. So much trust will hurt you. No trust also will make your life miserable. Hence, we need trust and should try to have a safe level of trust to avoid dissapointment. For me, trust is the most crucial in any relationship. My advice, before you trust someone, trust your heart first. Your heart will never lie to you and know when is the best time to stop trusting someone . . .

Trust in me

trust in me

cause i know the pain

trust in me

cause i know the cold nights

trust in me

cause i know the lonliness

trust in me

cause i know my heart

trust in me

cause i know my soul

trust in me

cause i know what i give

trust in me

cause i know who i am

trust in me

cause i know what i want

trust in me

cause i know i can trust you! !

written by terry bonam

This is a very nice poem about trust. The big question is... Is my trust worth it??

The teddy bear is crying

While browsing for new pictures... i came across this website. The picture really caught my attention as it represent how i'm feeling now... I'm not in the mmod of continuing my trip story now... just read this...below is the direct quotation from the website:

Why can we all just get along? - Rodney King; Bubbles quote from "Octi Evil"

The teddy bear is crying, because people acted immature, argued, or even got into a fight with a another person.

The teddy bear is crying, because someone got punished for bringing the problems upon themselves towards another person.

The teddy bear is crying, because someone is feeling tormented, down, depressed and is uncapable of doing anything at all.

The teddy bear is crying, because someone feels unconfortable about what they're doing or about themselves overall.

I never want to publically blame anyone...no one is to blame, but there are at times where people can make mistakes like this once in a while and they learn to how to correct them, otherwise, mistakes will be repeated over and over to a point where they'll never learn.

Macau and hong kong trip ...part 1

We are backkk!!! Thank god we finally back to our comfort zone...Trust me..nothing like Malaysia in this world. We really missed the food, the warm weather and everything... As for my teddy bear, he love the coldness of Macau and Hong Kong. For me, the cold weather make my flu worst. I can't even breath.

The first day we were there, it was sooo cold... the lowest temperature that week...9 Celcius. For a person who came from a nice tropical weather..that was really cold man! As many of us know, Macau is the heaven for gaemblers. There is no productions, factory or farm... You can see casino almost everywhere and it was full most of the time. The casino was sooo beautifully decorated inside and outside. First, we went to visit Sands casino... its not that nice as what i think..but it our first experiences entering a casino... Teddy bear wanted to try the slot machines but we did not how... hehehe. Below is the pictures of the casiono we visited.. on the left is the sands and the right side is the venetian ...

The best is still the Venetian casino. Unfortunately, i did not went to visit it becoz of my flu. Teddy bear visited the place and took a lot of beautiful pictures. Thanks to one of our friend, he give me a keychain from the casino. Teddy bear didn't but it for me. Maybe he's too busy taking pictures or worrying about me lying sick in the hotel. hehehhe. I wish its true...How ever, teddy bear is like an angel during this trip. He really patiences with his sick and unpredictable wife. Once again, I love you sooo much teddy bear.

We did not spend much time in Macau becoz we arrived at 3 pm and went to city tour. The next day, we already headed to Hong Kong by ferry. We had a great time in Hong Kong...so, wait for my next blog to know it.

Teddy bear new jacket . . .

LAst saturday, we went to do complete blood test for teddy bear . . he was so nervous until his blood pressure increased. hehehe . We will know the result in few days . . I really hope..everything is okay with him ..

Today, me and my teddy beddy went to our last minute shopping and teddy bear bought a nice brown camel jacket. He look good in that jacket ..trust me... not because he's my hubby. And i can see that he really like that jacket... for me..it always worth it to buy him a jacket...because he will used it maximised. Yeah, most the time he's in the server room. What make the jacket so special, it does match his previous bag and his shoes... the colour almost similar . . I cant find any pictures that look alike his jacket... please be satisfed with these pictures above. hehehe

Teddy bear, i hope you really happy with yur new jacket and we gonna have fun there... I love you . . .

Info for my teddy bear

Last Wednesday, we went to a clinic to check on teddy bears' toe. The doctor suggested that he got a Gout problem. How ever, teddy bear had to undergone a blood test for confirmation. With the opportunity arise, I had requested the docotr to do full blood test to teddy bear. To ensure he okay and healthy. So, as for tonite..teddy bear has to fast starting from 10 pm onwards.

This the the fast fact i got from the net about this sickness. I'm hoping that teddy bear did not had it.. just a speculation. If not, he got to forget all his favourite food in the future.

• Intense painful swelling in the feet (and especially the big toe) may indicate gout.
• Treatment options exist, but therapy should be individualized for each person.
• Avoiding alcohol and certain fish and meats helps prevent further gout attacks.

There are many reasons why an episode of gout will appear, including drinking too much alcohol or eating certain kinds of food rich in purines such as seafood, beans, sweetbreads, gravies and anchovies. Other potential triggers of gout include:

• Surgery
• Stress
• Crash diets
• Sudden, severe illness
• Chemotherapy
• Joint injury
• High blood pressure
• Excessive exercise.

Those highlighted in red is what i think the main cause of teddy bear illness. hehehehe

Flash news about teddy bear

Last nite, teddy bear complained about his achy toe as i came home from my lecture. He can't bearly walk straight. To my surprise, i can see that his toe was swelling. I think this is about time for him to get an x-ray. No excuses. How ever tonite, we are going to see our personal GP first. I hope nothing serious coz our trip is just around the corner. How can he enjoy with the pain. Fo time being, i hope my massage skills will help him little bit... hehehheh

Teddy bear new looks

It has been a while since my last updated story about my teddy bear . . . Actually for last few weeks..we were busy doing our shopping...big shopping . . . Not only we bought some stuff as preparation to our Hong Kong's trip next 2 weeks but also for personal used. FYI teddy bear bought:

- a new pair of jeans.... he look great in that jeans

- a small bag . . . i not really like that bag . . . but who cares..as long as teddy bear is happy
- a CK sunglass that he always wanted since last year . . . actually we always teased him that the sunglass will make him look like a gay boy... hehehehhe

An for my self... i had make an high investment by buying a expensive jacket . . .but as what my friends said... i may need it in the future when i start working again . . . yeah in mac i will complete my mba study and start working....waaa... i really like my life now... to go back and face the office politics and bad traffic... make me headache by just thinking of it.

I'm happy for teddy bear coz he more than deserved to spend his bonus on his favourite things.. as long as it makes him happy . . . and save some for future use. And what make me proud...is that he's willing to pay my expenses for the trip to hong kong . . . Thank you teddy bear!!!